Missing Tanzania already
I made it home with no problems. Sorry for anyone who was worried especially with all the terrorist scares. I had no idea about them until I got off at Dulles and my parents asked if I had any trouble and then explained to me about at that had happened at Heathrow. It was wonderful to see them at the airport and they barely recognized me with my hair in cornrows. (One of the girls, Juliette, had insisted on doing my hair before I left). So, let me recount my last few days:
On Sat (the 5th), I went and bought some materials in Boma to finish the roof of the preschool at Pilgrim. I then headed to Mailisita because Dada Anna (kitchen staff) & I were supposed to go to Moshi to set her up an email account. Well, she wasn't able to go because she was the only staff there. I was quite disappointed but I ended up not feeling well later in the day so it was probably for the better anyhow. On Sunday we took the kids to church again-my final time. I went to Malika to make sure the girls were ready and on time, but things never go smoothly Sunday morning and the boys were late this week (last week was the girls). But we all made it and a lot of volunteers joined us as well. Dave (from Seattle) preached that Sunday while Jack translated into Swahili. His message was wonderful and really resonated with me. He talked about leading a life of servitude and that it should not be an event, but rather a lifestyle. So, a Christian should not just serve a couple months out of the year but year-round. He talked about how in our culture, success is measured by how far up the corporate ladder you are, what car you drive, where you live and such but that it is by serving others that you are the most successful as a Christian. It gave everyone a lot to consider. Jack, Ben, & Josh sang a couple songs and the kids sang as well. The church has really welcomed us and the kids which is wonderful. As I was saying my goodbyes this week, many of the older kids were worried that by me leaving they wouldn't be able to go to that same same church. I reassured them that I had already spoken with Dave and others to make sure they continued to go. I think the spiritual health of these children is of utmost importance.
On Monday, Reike and I met with Jack & Josh to head out to Tindegarney to check on the Masai house. Mr. Ayo (the contractor) met us and we headed back to his home to get his pickup truck. He showed us around the outside of his home which was very well-kept. We even tried juice he makes from a plant called rosera--tastes a lot like blackberries. Imagine being able to make juice from a plant in your backyard! So we set off into Masai land, Jack & I in the front with Mr. Ayo and Josh & Reike in the back of the pickup. As we drove through the bush, Mr. Ayo asked me (as everyone did) when I was coming back. I said that I didn't know but hopefully soon. He advised me that if I came back to live that I need to bring my boyfriend! That was his only advice to me. And of course I say well what if I don;t have one and he says well you need one. He explained how much more enjoyable it would be to have a partner to share the experience with, etc. I couldn't really disagree with that but it will be difficult to find someone who is ok with his wife travelling to Africa...We got to the house which of course was not finished yet. So after figuring everything out we headed home. As we drove along, Mr. Ayo suggested I try driving his truck! After trying to talk my way out of it I somehow ended up behind the wheel. Thankfully, even though the driver's side is on the right, the clutch, brake & accelerator are in the same positions. After giving some gas to start the truck I was off down a dirt road with so many ditches/potholes. I almost hit a tree trying to avoid some of the holes! It was a great experience though I felt bad for Reike & Josh in the back :). Mr. Ayo dropped us at Pilgrim where I would be spending the next two nights--my last nights in Tanzania. I played with the kids and helped with dinner. Many of the boys stayed up to watch a movie because they had no school the next day--it was nane nane (eight eight--Aug 8th) which is a holiday. That night, Ben, Josh, Jack, Fiona (volunteer from UK), & I stayed up really late talking about Christianity. We were trying to explain to Fiona about Christianity--it is often difficult for me to explain but I was surprised that I was more articulate this time than any in the past. I think my experiences in Tanzania has certainly solidified my faith and strengthened my relationship with God. We also talked about politics and westerners moving to Africa and such. It was so wonderful to have input from people from the UK, Kenya, Uganda, and Tennessee.
On Tues, it was staff day off, volunteer day on! The volunteers pay for the staff to have a day off and do some activity and this year was safari. I thought that I might have it easy at Pilgrim bc Ben & Jack would be there-both are volunteers. But, I discovered the day before that bc they are staying longer than most volunteers they would be going. So, Josh & I would have to head things up at Pilgrim. In the morning, Dada Glady showed us how to make bread for 46 boys. She mixed up some dough we would have to cook later for dinner and we would have to mix up and bake another for tomorrow's breakfast. Hannah & Dan were there too from the 2nd New Castle group and they were a big help. Dan cooked pretty much the entire lunch-he was covered head to toe in soot from the 3 stone fire used to cook all meals. Also that day, a team of 17 volunteers arrived who would be camping out at Pilgrim and doing projects for five days. I really felt then like Pilgrim was my home, I felt like I had to welcome the new volunteers and show them around "my place." Later that day, Mama Lynn stopped by with 25 or more visitors from Cross Cultural Solutions, an organization that places volunteers around the world (don't ever use them though, email me if you want more on that). So it was quite a hectic day and then all the volunteers but Josh, Fiona, & me left before dinner and the staff still weren't back. So it was just the three of us with 46 boys! Thankfully a couple of the ladies from the camping group helped us get the boys to bed. And as soon as they were all settled in bed the staff returned and everyone was up to greet them! The staff seemed like they had a good time and kept telling us "pole sana" (very sorry). After the boys got settled, Ben, Jack, Josh, Fiona, Mama Dianna and I stayed up for dinner, tea and to chat. Then Ben & Josh went to bed and Mama Dianna started crying hysterically about me leaving. I didn't know what to do or say. I didn't want to promise I would come back so I just tried to comfort her somewhat. Thankfully, Jack saved me and talked to her in Swahili but I could understand a lot of what she was saying. She said that before me, no one in 5 yrs had stayed the night at Pilgrim and that I was different than the other volunteers, and such. As my Dad always says, your blessings are also a curse. It was so wonderful to have made a difference and to really connect with the children and staff and volunteers--but all that makes it so much harder to leave.
We all finally went to bed and I couldn't believe this was my last night in Tanzania! The next morning (Weds) I walked to Boma with Jack to meet up with Hannah. We had a wonderful talk along the way--I for the last month I knew that I would miss Jack terribly and I couldn't believe that today was our last day together. We met up with everyone and then at 930 I had to meet with Mama Gemma to head to KCMC to sign the contract with Anicet, the OT student I would be sponsoring. Mama Gemma had printed up a contract--terms & conditions of our sponsorship, etc. I was really impressed with what she had written. Despite the fact that meeting up on my last day made it more hectic of a day, it was very fitting to sign those documents on my last day. His sponsorship will be about US$1000/yr for 2yrs so look out for some fundraising coming up;-)! After KCMC, Mama Gemma was kind enought o take me to a couple souvenior places to buy things bc of course I had put that off til the very last minute. I headed back to Boma to say goodbye at Malika and to buy some kengas (material) at the local market. It was really difficult to say goodbye to Juliette. I feel so connected to her and she is such a special young lady. I am thinking of sponsoring her to come to a summer camp in the US next summer. She is intelligent and hardworking and is owed a break more than anyone I know. After finishing errands in Boma, I met with Jack for lunch and to say goodbye--that was pretty difficult. We had become such great friends-he was certainly the person I was closest to during my stay. It was great to have someone I could trust to share with my frustrations and achievements. So, I said goodbye to Jack and then had only 30mins to shower and pack before leaving for the airport! But, I think in a way it was good to leave in a rush so that I wasn't too upset at leaving. Mama Gemma & her two kids (Sophie & Jared) took me to the airport and it was hard to say goodbye. Mama Gemma is such an amazing woman and so inspirational-I knew I would truly miss her and her kids too.
The flights home were uneventful and easier than I thought--the time passed quickly despite two 8 hr flights with a 4 hr layover. At Dulles, customs was a breeze and Dad spotted me first and both gave me big hugs. I couldn't believe I was actually home. They filled me in on all the happenings with Heathrow, which I had heard nothing about. I just chilled the rest of the day and went to bed very early. It has been harder in regards to jet lag returning home than it was arriving in Tanzania. Yesterday, I had a lazy day which was hard to get use to. I hadn't had a day off in almost two months and hadn't slept-in in weeks. Today, my parents had a neighborhood garage sale. It was a beautiful day. Their next door neighbors have a 7mo old granddaughter. It was really amazing to see a healthy 7mo old-she was bigger than many of the 1 1/2yr olds at the orphanage. And so many people loved her too. It hit me and I had to spend some moments inside. I really miss my kids-I know they're not my kids but I feel like I am a big sister to so many of them. I often calculate the time change and wonder what they are doing. I dream about being able to see them again and helping them with school and maybe coordinating a visit to the US. They will always be a part of my life.
Thank you so much to everyone. I know I often say thank you, but really I can never say it enough. To those who donated, I hope I used your money in a way you approve of. I will be sending out letters shortly to those who donated with pictures, budget, and such. I could not have done all I accomplished without your generosity. To those who supported me emotionally and spiritually-thank you so very much. You all put smiles on my face whenever I would read your emails/comments and thank you for taking time out for me. Even though you were not in Tanzania with me physically, you all will hold a special place in my heart when I think back on my experience there. Thank you to those who supported my parents while I was away-thank you for keeping them sane;-). To my parents-I can never thank you enough for all you have contributed. You both supported me in every way possible. It was so wonderful to be able to share my thoughts with you on the phone. In every compliment I received, I was thankful for the way you raised me. To Chris & Krisitin-thank you both for your love and support. You all have shown me to follow your dreams and take risks in life. I don't know if I would have been brave enough to take this trip without your inspiration. I can't wait to see you both in Sept!
On Sat (the 5th), I went and bought some materials in Boma to finish the roof of the preschool at Pilgrim. I then headed to Mailisita because Dada Anna (kitchen staff) & I were supposed to go to Moshi to set her up an email account. Well, she wasn't able to go because she was the only staff there. I was quite disappointed but I ended up not feeling well later in the day so it was probably for the better anyhow. On Sunday we took the kids to church again-my final time. I went to Malika to make sure the girls were ready and on time, but things never go smoothly Sunday morning and the boys were late this week (last week was the girls). But we all made it and a lot of volunteers joined us as well. Dave (from Seattle) preached that Sunday while Jack translated into Swahili. His message was wonderful and really resonated with me. He talked about leading a life of servitude and that it should not be an event, but rather a lifestyle. So, a Christian should not just serve a couple months out of the year but year-round. He talked about how in our culture, success is measured by how far up the corporate ladder you are, what car you drive, where you live and such but that it is by serving others that you are the most successful as a Christian. It gave everyone a lot to consider. Jack, Ben, & Josh sang a couple songs and the kids sang as well. The church has really welcomed us and the kids which is wonderful. As I was saying my goodbyes this week, many of the older kids were worried that by me leaving they wouldn't be able to go to that same same church. I reassured them that I had already spoken with Dave and others to make sure they continued to go. I think the spiritual health of these children is of utmost importance.
On Monday, Reike and I met with Jack & Josh to head out to Tindegarney to check on the Masai house. Mr. Ayo (the contractor) met us and we headed back to his home to get his pickup truck. He showed us around the outside of his home which was very well-kept. We even tried juice he makes from a plant called rosera--tastes a lot like blackberries. Imagine being able to make juice from a plant in your backyard! So we set off into Masai land, Jack & I in the front with Mr. Ayo and Josh & Reike in the back of the pickup. As we drove through the bush, Mr. Ayo asked me (as everyone did) when I was coming back. I said that I didn't know but hopefully soon. He advised me that if I came back to live that I need to bring my boyfriend! That was his only advice to me. And of course I say well what if I don;t have one and he says well you need one. He explained how much more enjoyable it would be to have a partner to share the experience with, etc. I couldn't really disagree with that but it will be difficult to find someone who is ok with his wife travelling to Africa...We got to the house which of course was not finished yet. So after figuring everything out we headed home. As we drove along, Mr. Ayo suggested I try driving his truck! After trying to talk my way out of it I somehow ended up behind the wheel. Thankfully, even though the driver's side is on the right, the clutch, brake & accelerator are in the same positions. After giving some gas to start the truck I was off down a dirt road with so many ditches/potholes. I almost hit a tree trying to avoid some of the holes! It was a great experience though I felt bad for Reike & Josh in the back :). Mr. Ayo dropped us at Pilgrim where I would be spending the next two nights--my last nights in Tanzania. I played with the kids and helped with dinner. Many of the boys stayed up to watch a movie because they had no school the next day--it was nane nane (eight eight--Aug 8th) which is a holiday. That night, Ben, Josh, Jack, Fiona (volunteer from UK), & I stayed up really late talking about Christianity. We were trying to explain to Fiona about Christianity--it is often difficult for me to explain but I was surprised that I was more articulate this time than any in the past. I think my experiences in Tanzania has certainly solidified my faith and strengthened my relationship with God. We also talked about politics and westerners moving to Africa and such. It was so wonderful to have input from people from the UK, Kenya, Uganda, and Tennessee.
On Tues, it was staff day off, volunteer day on! The volunteers pay for the staff to have a day off and do some activity and this year was safari. I thought that I might have it easy at Pilgrim bc Ben & Jack would be there-both are volunteers. But, I discovered the day before that bc they are staying longer than most volunteers they would be going. So, Josh & I would have to head things up at Pilgrim. In the morning, Dada Glady showed us how to make bread for 46 boys. She mixed up some dough we would have to cook later for dinner and we would have to mix up and bake another for tomorrow's breakfast. Hannah & Dan were there too from the 2nd New Castle group and they were a big help. Dan cooked pretty much the entire lunch-he was covered head to toe in soot from the 3 stone fire used to cook all meals. Also that day, a team of 17 volunteers arrived who would be camping out at Pilgrim and doing projects for five days. I really felt then like Pilgrim was my home, I felt like I had to welcome the new volunteers and show them around "my place." Later that day, Mama Lynn stopped by with 25 or more visitors from Cross Cultural Solutions, an organization that places volunteers around the world (don't ever use them though, email me if you want more on that). So it was quite a hectic day and then all the volunteers but Josh, Fiona, & me left before dinner and the staff still weren't back. So it was just the three of us with 46 boys! Thankfully a couple of the ladies from the camping group helped us get the boys to bed. And as soon as they were all settled in bed the staff returned and everyone was up to greet them! The staff seemed like they had a good time and kept telling us "pole sana" (very sorry). After the boys got settled, Ben, Jack, Josh, Fiona, Mama Dianna and I stayed up for dinner, tea and to chat. Then Ben & Josh went to bed and Mama Dianna started crying hysterically about me leaving. I didn't know what to do or say. I didn't want to promise I would come back so I just tried to comfort her somewhat. Thankfully, Jack saved me and talked to her in Swahili but I could understand a lot of what she was saying. She said that before me, no one in 5 yrs had stayed the night at Pilgrim and that I was different than the other volunteers, and such. As my Dad always says, your blessings are also a curse. It was so wonderful to have made a difference and to really connect with the children and staff and volunteers--but all that makes it so much harder to leave.
We all finally went to bed and I couldn't believe this was my last night in Tanzania! The next morning (Weds) I walked to Boma with Jack to meet up with Hannah. We had a wonderful talk along the way--I for the last month I knew that I would miss Jack terribly and I couldn't believe that today was our last day together. We met up with everyone and then at 930 I had to meet with Mama Gemma to head to KCMC to sign the contract with Anicet, the OT student I would be sponsoring. Mama Gemma had printed up a contract--terms & conditions of our sponsorship, etc. I was really impressed with what she had written. Despite the fact that meeting up on my last day made it more hectic of a day, it was very fitting to sign those documents on my last day. His sponsorship will be about US$1000/yr for 2yrs so look out for some fundraising coming up;-)! After KCMC, Mama Gemma was kind enought o take me to a couple souvenior places to buy things bc of course I had put that off til the very last minute. I headed back to Boma to say goodbye at Malika and to buy some kengas (material) at the local market. It was really difficult to say goodbye to Juliette. I feel so connected to her and she is such a special young lady. I am thinking of sponsoring her to come to a summer camp in the US next summer. She is intelligent and hardworking and is owed a break more than anyone I know. After finishing errands in Boma, I met with Jack for lunch and to say goodbye--that was pretty difficult. We had become such great friends-he was certainly the person I was closest to during my stay. It was great to have someone I could trust to share with my frustrations and achievements. So, I said goodbye to Jack and then had only 30mins to shower and pack before leaving for the airport! But, I think in a way it was good to leave in a rush so that I wasn't too upset at leaving. Mama Gemma & her two kids (Sophie & Jared) took me to the airport and it was hard to say goodbye. Mama Gemma is such an amazing woman and so inspirational-I knew I would truly miss her and her kids too.
The flights home were uneventful and easier than I thought--the time passed quickly despite two 8 hr flights with a 4 hr layover. At Dulles, customs was a breeze and Dad spotted me first and both gave me big hugs. I couldn't believe I was actually home. They filled me in on all the happenings with Heathrow, which I had heard nothing about. I just chilled the rest of the day and went to bed very early. It has been harder in regards to jet lag returning home than it was arriving in Tanzania. Yesterday, I had a lazy day which was hard to get use to. I hadn't had a day off in almost two months and hadn't slept-in in weeks. Today, my parents had a neighborhood garage sale. It was a beautiful day. Their next door neighbors have a 7mo old granddaughter. It was really amazing to see a healthy 7mo old-she was bigger than many of the 1 1/2yr olds at the orphanage. And so many people loved her too. It hit me and I had to spend some moments inside. I really miss my kids-I know they're not my kids but I feel like I am a big sister to so many of them. I often calculate the time change and wonder what they are doing. I dream about being able to see them again and helping them with school and maybe coordinating a visit to the US. They will always be a part of my life.
Thank you so much to everyone. I know I often say thank you, but really I can never say it enough. To those who donated, I hope I used your money in a way you approve of. I will be sending out letters shortly to those who donated with pictures, budget, and such. I could not have done all I accomplished without your generosity. To those who supported me emotionally and spiritually-thank you so very much. You all put smiles on my face whenever I would read your emails/comments and thank you for taking time out for me. Even though you were not in Tanzania with me physically, you all will hold a special place in my heart when I think back on my experience there. Thank you to those who supported my parents while I was away-thank you for keeping them sane;-). To my parents-I can never thank you enough for all you have contributed. You both supported me in every way possible. It was so wonderful to be able to share my thoughts with you on the phone. In every compliment I received, I was thankful for the way you raised me. To Chris & Krisitin-thank you both for your love and support. You all have shown me to follow your dreams and take risks in life. I don't know if I would have been brave enough to take this trip without your inspiration. I can't wait to see you both in Sept!

